I wanted to enjoy the precious, fleeting moments with my baby. But this wasn’t what I’d imagined when I’d dreamed of motherhood. I was exhausted, discouraged, and falling apart.
At the time, all I knew of sleep trainging was the Cry It Out method, which was out of the question for us. As desperate as I was, I couldn’t do that to him. I needed a method that let me respond to and comfort him.
I was too tired to sort through all the contradictory information online. It just left me feeling more confused, and nothing worked.
I can’t do this anymore.
The thought came one night as I cried silently, my baby nursing for what felt like the 14th time that night.
That was my wakeup call. Something had to change. I was at the end of my rope when I found our sleep consultant, who later became my instructor when I became certified.